Home is not just my people


Though I am with the people I love most and am most comfortable with, I am right now missing my place of comfort. 

Whenever I travel, there comes a time when my longing need - the desire for adventure or something unfamiliar- turns to belonging need- the desire for comfort and familiarity - For home.


Today I am wondering when this moment of transition from longing need to belonging need on this trip took place. And always when I’ve traveled, I’ve missed the moment that longing and belonging shake hands. This is a moment I’ve never captured. All I know is that my longing now is for home -a place that is familiar, and has all of our stuff. 


Taking this water bottle from Yellowstone back to my home feels nice. And makes me think: Maybe it’s not a moment, but a compromise…something from the place of adventure - and at times uncomfortable excitement - I was once longing for….back to the place of familiarity and comfort  that is my place of belonging in my life now.  


Actually, I think there might not be a moment. I think this water bottle might be the handshake.  

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